Since the breakup, I’ve been trying to put one foot in front of the other, instead of just stumbling around.
I have decorated, I have been distracting myself with reading and watching television (although very limited and mediocre television…), and I have tried to avoid dwelling. I think I’m doing a pretty good job, but sometimes little things sneak in and slap me in the face.
I’ve been trying to focus on all the good times we had, without any real bitterness towards the end. I’m grateful for all those years, and I don’t want to wipe my memory completely clean of it. Now for the other situation that happened, I’d love to have an Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind moment, but I’m taking it as a learning experience of figuring out who has your back and who doesn’t.
Sadly in these last few weeks, I’ve been having a LOT of pain. It doesn’t help that my bed here is significantly less soft than the one I had before. My hips and knees have been KILLING me, alongside chronic stomachaches which are no fun, inflamed nerves in my left arm, and sleep problems EVERY night due to the pain. Sadly, the nights are when I’m awake and no one else is around, so it tends to be when my brain decides to dwell. The nights are definitely the hardest for me.
I know that I need to channel these feelings into art, but the pain from Fibromyalgia is really getting in the way of allowing that to happen. Everything is a big pile of hurt. On the plus side, the body hurt is a decent distraction from the heart hurt (is that a plus side? I’m not really sure…). I have definitely learned that a broken body does not stop for a broken heart.
Fun things people have encouraged to distract me:
The most adorable anime I’ve ever seen!!
I always love a good cooking show
I was super frustrated with how Catching Fire ended so hopefully this one will have answers for me!
Anyone have any other good ideas to heal a broken heart? (Other than time, because that one can only come so fast haha!)
xoxo,
Annie











































