• Mr. Marms, the coolest fur baby of all the fur babies.  I don’t know what I’d do without the little dude.
• My twitter family who all have my heart, and the sweet gestures that they’ve extended to me.
• My family who have been as supportive as anyone can be during this crisis time.
• Polyvore, for helping me figure out how I want to design my small bedroom
• The Project Runway Canada season that is currently helping me distract myself…
• Jelly beans
• Pillows and blankies to cuddle up in when I’m feeling sad or in pain.

Otherwise, I’m not feeling at my best for sure.  I definitely feel more sad than happy, but I’m trying my very best to keep my head above water.  I wish I could just numb my feelings for awhile, but sadly that isn’t the easiest thing to do!  Plus physically, my body feels like I got stuck in an industrial size dryer with a headache on top.  It’s a mountain to climb, but damn it, I’m going to try and climb it.

I feel like I’m this dog haha

Stephen Colbert reading Cat Fancy…what could be better??

My ex saw this and thought of me. It’s pretty much me in a nutshell. I’d love to have a Hammerhead shark outfit and pretend to eat my cat in pictures!!  I may be insane, but I’m not the only one.

What are you guys grateful for this Friday?

xoxo,

Annie

It’s such a strange experience to go from being mostly housebound in one location, to being mostly housebound in another location.

You’d think housebound would be housebound, but I had put so much effort into carving myself a place where I felt like even the house loved me (weird I know, but I think decorating has the power to do that…).  Now the room is so small and reflects nothing about me at all. I’m really going to have to focus on getting that room to be as much about me as physically possible.

I should line the walls with inspiring quotes and pictures, because I definitely need pick-me-ups anywhere that I can get them.  I wonder if I want to paint.  It’s a butter yellow right now, which I use to love, but it doesn’t seem cheery enough anymore.  I want it to look bright and artistic.  I need to go on Etsy and get some artwork, and I need to get some from my ex sis-in-law, because she does such dreamy work.  I need her things on my walls, even though it’s going to somewhat remind me of this whole situation.

I’m going to miss his family so much.  I love them so much.  It’s funny how when you split, you lose so many people instead of just your partner.  I know they still care about me though, and that warms my heart.

Anyone have any good decorating on a budget ideas?  It’s a pretty small space, but I need to make it seem happy and homey (for Mr. Marms too!)

xoxo,

Annie

I need something to lighten the mood as I get back on my feet, so I’m going to one of my true loves: fashion.

Freida Pinto + a red suit = perfection!

I’ll always have a soft spot for Florence <3

Oh Kate Middleton – you’re so prettyyyyyyy!

Michelle Williams in Giambattista Valli – so cute!

Victoria Beckham as a designer does no wrong!

Olivia Wilde is always a stunner.

Jamie King in Prabal Gurung…so beautiful.  I crave this outfit for my own body!

I know most of you do health and not fashion, but I think the way that people dress really influences their mood.  It’s one of the easiest ways to pick yourself out of a slump.  The thing about invisible illness is that no one can tell you’re sick and hurting anyway, so you might as well look good.  Now, most of us can’t work and afford these kind of clothes, but they give me ideas as to what I should look for in cheaper stores.

What is an easy pick me up for you?  It can be as simple as a cup of coffee, or looking at pretty art!  Let me know, as I need to cultivate as many pick-me-ups as possible!

xoxo,

Annie

I love my family.  I love all their quirks and their ways of being themselves.

I love my kitty, even though he’s chasing my parent’s doggy.  He’s the best kitty of all time, and he’s my mighty little lion.  He’s been so supportive of me through this, in the way only your fur babies can be.

I love my twitter family, as they’ve been so supportive, and I know that if I ever got the chance to meet any of them in person, we’d be fast friends.  Each and every person on there is a gem.

I’m trying to be the best I can be in the face of all this drama.  I just want to throw myself into loving other people and climbing back up out of my hole of sadness.  I don’t want to be sad.  I just want to want to make the best of this time that I have left on Earth.

Well mostly you just need a good family and a cat haha

I really could use a medal for that right now!!

I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart.  I’ll be okay and it’s thanks to all of you!

xoxo,

Annie

• Having to be alone again after so long.  It just shatters my insides.  I never wanted this to happen, but you can’t always get what you want.  My kitty lost his daddy and his home too, and I feel really bad for him.
• Depression…I thought I was in a bad state on Friday, now I am just a wreck.  I picked up things from my (well not mine any longer…) house, and then I got sufficiently told about how horrible I am (drama I don’t need), and now I am just crushed.
• Dairy is no longer being my friend. I’m going to have to cut it out and my possible food options are smaller than ever.  Awesome.  Holy belly pain!
• If anyone reads this and lives in Summerside, please be my friend?  I could really use one.  I don’t even know who all is still here.
• Crying so much that my body decided it wanted to create a fibro flare.
• I don’t want to be blogging this experience, as for some reason that will mean it’s true, but I don’t want to stop because if I ever needed this, it’s now.  Plus, I’ve put so much effort and heart into this blog, it would be a shame to drop it just because I’m depressed and circumstances are the hardest they’ve ever been.  I hope I can still be accepted for it.
• Losing trust.  I wasn’t one who could easily trust in general, and now that feeling has multiplied monumentally.

So yeah, that was some sadness…

Let’s lighten it up a little with some pictures:

This cat is sooooooooo adorable.  WANT.  I should make such cat pictures with Marms, he knows how to give a dirty look!

I just finished Australia’s Next Top Model Cycle 7, and the beautiful Montana Cox won, who has been the most successful of any winner in any of the international series.

We’ll say this is my mantra right now…

So what’s bugging you this week?  Any words of widsom for me?

xoxo,

Annie

• Smoothies.  I’ve been living off of them.  Seriously good, but it would be nice to be able to shake it up a bit, so if anyone has any good recipes, let me know!!
• Listening to Mr. Marms play with his new toy/playing with him with it!  It’s got a mouse on a string and he goes crazy for it!
• Finding funny things on the Internet.  Seriously, I’ve been so down this week, that I’m surviving off of anything that can bring a smile to my face.  If anyone has any great websites, please tell me in the comments – I’ll love you forever!
• Shopping online – I should seriously be a buyer for a cool store, because I could shop until the cows come home (yes, I know, weird saying…).
• Same with coloring – there should be jobs for people who can do kick-ass coloring!
• Basically, someone needs to supply me with a job at home doing what I like, and then I would love that very much!
• Sour candies dipped in chocolate!
• Pineapplesssssssss.

Now I’m going to be staying at my mom’s place until Monday as people are worried about me.  I don’t want to alienate anyone, so I shall do it.

I need sleep.

Jason Wu’s kitty illustration

The pretty girls of television in Vanity Fair

What are you all grateful for this week?

xoxo,

Annie

You’ll never see it coming…

A terribly honest look at Fibromyalgia as an illness, and the inability to know when it’s going to flare…

Voila, a tagline.

Alas, that did not fully amuse me so I’m going to add pictures:

Everything should be as adorable as this horse with this cat.

Cats rule. Seriously guys, I needz to getz a kitten.

I wish I was watching Iron Chef right now.  I mean if I’m not able to eat food, surely I can watch it right?  If only I still had the channel… It always cracks me up the way that guy enjoys that yellow pepper!

This post is lackluster, but my brain and body are in similar states so it will have to do.

Hope you are all well!

xoxo,

Annie

She was out meditating in the backyard, with the sun beating down on her and the wind tousling her long auburn hair.  All thoughts were removed from her mind by the power of nature, and were replaced with only the sound of birds chirping in song.  As a result, she felt alive for the first time in a very long time.  For this, she was grateful.

(Images from WeHeartIt)

We need to hold on to those few moments of bliss to keep us going.

xoxo,

Annie

When I first read this challenge, I was completely stumped.  I had no idea what kind of mascot I would come up with, as the concept seemed kind of silly, but I was compelled in the branding possibilities of a logo.

I would love to have had the time to draw a logo myself and display it here (who knows, maybe I will in the future!!), but  the time in between waking up and having to finish this blog challenge does not allow me that freedom.

While I was worrying that I wouldn’t be able to come up with anything at all, I looked to the name of my website.  Fragile Annie.  I was basically comparing myself to an easily broken doll.  Having all of these illnesses is basically like watching all of your pieces fall apart over time, as sad a picture as that paints.  However, just because our pieces are a little off, doesn’t mean we can’t still have a presence and an importance.  Broken dolls are loved all over the world!  Just because we aren’t in mint condition, doesn’t mean we aren’t special .

I found this lovely illustration by Amanda Cass:

We’re still move-able (ish), and we’re still beautiful, despite the fact that things are a little twisted in our bodies.

This would be the inspiration for the type of logo or mascot I would want to come up with for this blog.

Do you like this idea?

xoxo,

Annie

• My ability to digest food has gone away thanks to a failure in my gastroparesis meds. Blech.
• Poor kitty is as pukey as him mommy…
• My nail art manicure is moderately pathetic…I think I’ll stick to using the Sally Hansen sticker ones!
• I was feeling very lonely, but last night I got to chat with my beloved Shruti!  That is one thing that most definitely does not bug me haha!  I need to save up enough money to either go visit her or have her come visit me!
• Trying to come up with decent things in liquid form that have enough calories and taste decent…if anyone has any good websites – let me know!
• I failed at keeping up with the WEGO health challenge on the weekend, but the weekend was challenging for my health, so that will just have to be that.
• Mr. Kitty has made it his life goal to try to keep us awake to play half of the night!  It’s adorable, but less so at 4 a.m.
• Losing weight suddenly in the way that I didn’t want to lose weight is making me wonder if my new clothes will still fit in a week’s time!
• So many great shows to watch, so much of feeling like I’m wasting my life!
• The amount of negativity that is floating around on twitter lately.  I need to go through and recheck who all I’m following :/

It sure seems to try anyway, haha

Haha, Jon says this to me all of the time!  Love Phil on Modern Family!

I wonder this often!

What is getting you down, grinding your gears, or making you kerfuffled today?  I promise you’ll feel better if you get it out of your brain!

xoxo,

Annie