When you require medication to live with certain illnesses, you don’t tend to think of yourself as an addict. I mean you don’t get any kind of high off of the drugs, and they don’t even remotely kill all of the pain in your body.
I missed my pills the other night for the first time in awhile, and within four hours I was in full-blown withdrawal. I’m talking freezing to death, sweating profusely, violently shaking, nauseous, dizzy, and all that good stuff. Every single time it happens it scares me half to death. My mother and sister are pharmacists and according to their education and experience, someone on the doses that I’m on and with the half-life of the drugs, it should be physiologically impossible to have such a quick and extreme reaction. And yet, with the chemical sensitivities of my body, somehow it manages to be possible. They have both said that they wouldn’t believe it if they hadn’t seen it with their own eyes.
It’s terrifying knowing that I’m under the control of such powerful drugs and that detoxing from them will just let all the other horrible pains through. It’s a no-win situation.
Is anyone else troubled by this sort of thing? Do any of you go into withdrawal and have reactions to medications that people say are impossible? I’m betting some of you do, because us chronic illness types tend to blur the line of what is and isn’t considered medically normal.