I feel as though I try incredibly hard, and yet manage to accomplish little to nothing in my time. I’m never bored, and even feel busy, but I seem to take longer than everyone else to do every task under the sun. I’m sure the heavy fatigue plays into it, as I often feel more productive on higher pain days, as they force me to stay awake, even if I am distracted by the pain (unless it’s a migraine, in which case I’m usually 100% down for the count).
There are so many things that I want to be doing, yet I’m only awake about 9 out of 24 hours (on a good day!). Most people are getting almost double the length of my day. This feels like a giant whine, but I am disappointed by the feeling of sleeping my life away. Nothing about chronic physical and mental illnesses ever goes according to plan though, so you would think that I would be used to it by now!
I have a doctor appointment tomorrow, which are always hard on me due to travel. I’m tired already just thinking about it, even though I slept three hours this afternoon.
I’m going to go write a giant to-do list and then return to my bed shortly after.
I hope you are all getting by okay health wise!