My illnesses have been getting the best of me the last couple of days, as one might have guessed by my lack of a blog post yesterday.
I had one of those half brilliant/half brutal days yesterday. It started with my mom and I picking apples for the first time and having a blast, and ended with a family member speaking of death to the point where I had a mega meltdown. I went from smiling/laughing/taking pictures to sobbing my eyes out in the bathroom in the midst of an epic panic attack. I had to feed myself some clonazepam to eventually calm down, but I still proceeded to hurt my body by being so upset for so long. When we returned home, I crashed into bed and stayed there.
This morning I woke up to a massive migraine crushing my skull; I’m guessing it’s doubly potent as a result of my violent reaction yesterday and good old PMS hormones which give me regular migraines. For some reason they decided to work together to knock the smithereens out of me. I have a feeling that it’s going to be one of those days where I load every bit of medication that I have on board, toss a giant cold pack on my head, and try to zone out to the television while cuddling Mr. Marms.
My brain needs to start being nicer to me. Wish me luck in drowning this evil beast!
How are you all? I hope as well as possible! I’ll make a more proper post once I get through all of this pain!