My skin has been so sensitive lately!
At first I thought it was just a photosensitivity situation, but my face has been stinging non-stop ever since. It’s hard to survive in this humidity and heat without fans, but the moment air blows on me, it’s pain central. I have no idea what is going on, as I’m using natural face products, no scrubs, and lots of moisturizer. You’d think I scratched my skin red raw all. Plus, I’m getting weird heat rashes on my neck. It’s just a magical skin time over here!
The other morning I woke up with nerve pain shooting out of the heels of my feet! It felt like I was being electrocuted and all the electricity was exiting like fire through my feet. I have no idea how one’s nervous system gets so confused, but that was highly unpleasant, especially as I had a wedding to go to that day! I had to take quite a bit of pain medicine to get my shoes on!
I managed to make it through the wedding which was beautiful, and I kept my composure! It’s been so hard lately, as anytime that I feel trapped (away from my home), I get the urge to just run away. Not that I can even run with my illnesses, but my brain still yells for me to do so. It’s happened numerous times now, and I’m not entirely sure what I can do to calm down the whole situation.
The wedding made me both happy and a little sad, as I always wanted to get married before my common-law marriage broke apart, and now I’m thinking it’s probably not worth it. I was always a hopeless romantic, but I’m doubting it’s ever going to happen. Marriage, a family, any of it. I know, I know…I’m not over-the-hill yet, but very few people want to take on the responsibility of these illnesses and my limitations.
I don’t want to dwell on it, so I’m focusing on the things that I love to do: reading, writing, art, listening to music, and loving my family and my beloved Mr. Marms with all of my heart. That’s really all one can do, right?
If only more people realized this.
Someday…things will be different.