I’m sticking with this title, I like it a lot better than Things That Bug Me Mondays!
- Having to ration my time – as in I can’t go to the beach if I want to go shopping, and sometimes I can’t do any of it, and just have to lay in bed. Illnesses are just so great. Fantastic. Magical. Seriously. Blech.
- I have been tired ALL of the time. I don’t know if the Ritalin just isn’t as good at keeping me awake as the Modafinil, but I am a sleepy monster.
- My entire extended family is devouring the 50 Shades of Grey Trilogy, so I decided I had to read it and see what all the fuss was about. Sadly, it just made me depressed about how the illness takes all the fun out of any such actions…
- The heat lately! My body does not regulate to extreme temperatures ever since getting Fibromyalgia and ME/CFS. As such, I have to hide out, or I’m in pain from the uncomfortable temperature and basically immediate heatstroke/dehydration, despite my efforts to combat it.
- Never knowing when my American magazine subscriptions are going to come! I don’t whether to pick one up, or if I’m just going to get a duplicate! I’m too poor to have duplicates!!
- Not getting enough on my to-do list done…I know I’m aiming a little too high, but I’m not even landing close to my goals. Someday I’ll manage to get on some kind of schedule!!
- That there is a HUGE sale going on at Zellers (clothes for like $4!) but I can’t take part in it because I’m a poor person (again)…luckily, my sister brought me to see Batman last night and picked up my ticket! <3 So sweet!
- Seeing Mr. Marms get sprayed with water in the eyes by my Momma because he was on the table. He’s 9 years old – chances are he’s not going to magically change his behavior! Plus, she really needs to learn to go for the fur! I’m just a sucker for my kitty, I’d let him do whatever he wanted, but it’s not my house anymore.
Oh Maxine…I totally feel you on this one!
Brain fog, brain fog, brain fog…
This roughly sums up the nonsense in my head right now!
Do any of you need to take a moment and scream and shout your frustrations (using the written word!)?? If so, feel free to leave me a comment, I like knowing how my readers are doing!
Sending love to you all.
xoxo,
Annie
I totally get all the things you say about not reaching goals, missing things if you want to save energy for other things, the unpredictability of it all, the extreme fatigue and the being poor. It’s so hard to take help from others–and we do have some small luxuries, but we miss out on so, so much. It does help me to count my blessings, right down to decent food to eat, clean water, electricity and a roof over my head, but when we’re feeling really down it doesn’t help at all to have someone tell us to count our blessings! One good thing about a little anger sometimes is that it can be energizing to get a few more things done. I was so pleased that in spite of a dr.’s appt. and my son needing some help searching for some things, I managed a short nap and then cooked dinner my my son and myself. Not as homemade as usual, but at least I managed it. I rested and cooled a little more and then even managed to clean and organize my freezer in preparation for grocery shopping on Fri. It’s almost the end of the month and we’re doing pretty well on having food left–another praise. Hope that you’re able to meet some of your goals too, Annie. All we can do is to keep trying.
Kara, I try to write blessings down on Fridays, but yeah, I like to take a day to just let me get a few things off my chest, even if they may not be all that serious!!
Good for you on getting all those tasks done!! And yes, all we can do is keep trying! xo