My average amount of sleep since I moved here has been about two hours during the night. This is possibly the most frustrating thing ever as a) it increases nausea b) it increases headaches c) it makes my illnesses flare up and d) it makes me feel like a crazy-ass zombie.
And trust me, no one wants to see me as a crazy-ass zombie. I’m crazy enough as it is.
Sometimes, if I’m a lucky girl, I can manage to grab a nap during the day. It seems to be a little easier to sleep during the day, like a forbidden fruit kind of situation. If I nap, I’m more likely to make my night sleeping worse, but if I force myself to stay up all day, it most certainly does not guarantee any more sleep than those two hours, so it really makes me think that I should grab the sleep while the sleep is taunting me. It’s probably taunting me because I’m hallucinating due to lack of sleepy times. AHHHH. MY BRAIN.
Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn’t power through the nights with a whole bunch of coffee and try to get something done and then crash out during the day. The way I’m currently approaching life is equaling very little done ever, which is not really how I like to live. I might have to try that some night soon.
I have numerous things to talk about when I book my next doctor’s appointment, and this is definitely going to be one of them. If I can’t learn to sleep, then I want a sleeping pill that will knock me out for a solid ten hours. I’ve been on every sleeping pill that I know of and have yet to accomplish this, but there has to be something better out there. One can only take so much.
Okay fellow insomniacs:
a) How on Earth do you get any sleep at night?
b) What are you taking to sleep at night?
c) Or do you party (if only) all night and sleep all day?
Answers would be much appreciated!
Oh yes, I know you well!
TRUTH. Unfortunate truth, but truth all the same.
I’m sending good sleepy wishes out to everyone who reads this!! Some people need to go sleep so I can live vicariously through them!