- Apparently, I’m too self-obsessed with how hard life is for me, which is frustrating for other people and drives them away…I wish I could not talk about it, but it’s so hard sometimes! I wish I could just keep my mouth shut, but then I wouldn’t have such lovely blog and twitter supporters! It’s hard to win in this world.
- My ex moving on so quickly. Ouchies.
- These constant stomachaches that double me over in pain. I have no idea what’s wrong, but if they don’t ease up, I soon need a date with the gastro specialist.
- Crying = migraines, so I really have to cut that shit out.
- Dreaming of making up with an old friend who I have tried to explain things to, but then waking up and realizing that it didn’t happen.
- Having a hard time trying to find out what I could join around this place where I could potentially make a few new friends…
- Insomnia…when I want to sleep for a good long time is when I’m wide awake typing blog posts in the middle of the night.
And being that I now feel guilty for doing this, I’m going to stop early.
Maybe by next Monday my guilt will dissipate and I’ll be back to being my regular self, who knows.
For every single one of my friends, and even for myself.
A little inspiration to not give up.
Keep on dreaming, it’s so important.
How are you all doing? Good, bad, otherwise? Let me know in the comments, I definitely feel the need for some human connection. Love you all.
xoxo,
Annie
Oh, Annie, I SOOOO get the first one. I’ve stopped explaining, because I’ve found friends who don’t need any explanation…and who listen without judgement. You’ll find the right people out there, hun. Stop trying to please others….if they get frustrated with you, then move on. I have friends who even try to distract me by talking about other things, and I used to get angry that they were “ignoring” my problems…but now know they just want to help.
And insomnia. Oh, how I know it well. Hang in there, girl!
.Hi Annie,
Don’t be too hard on yourself for talking about how difficult things are at the moment. Friends and family should realise that you need to talk as you sadly haven’t got anyone else to listen to you at the moment. By the way the dog and cat do count as they can give you unconditional love.the number of times I have cried into my cat’s fur and he has sat there and purred.
I’ve just lost a friend who abandoned me as she couldn’t cope with me being sick.
You are grieving for lots of reasons – it takes time.
I don’t know about meeting people – are there any free courses in your area or book groups?
All I know is that you have to keep believing in you and just do something when you can.
Big hugs.
Lorna x
Kira and Lorna,
Thank you so much, that was exactly what I needed people to say. I really appreciate your comments.
I know that I get belly problems from stress and
you’ve had a tonne lately! Hope it settles down soon! *hugs*
I wrote a rather lengthy comment on the nature post but still couldn’t help making a comment here too.
1. Talking about illness,check!
2. Sorry about ex…he may not have been worthy of you though that’s not I’m qualified enough to venture an informed opinion since I don ‘t know all..but I hope you get a bit less pain each day.
3. Gastro check.
4. Cring migraines, check.
5. Dreaming…check.
6. This place blog or this place where you live? If blog, check. Where you live: all have dropped off along the way and I don’t have the ability to socialize at all in person.
7. insomnia, the bane of my existence? Check.
So, you know you have people who can and do understand.
Hoping to hear/read more here. And you mentioned birds chirping…i started to almost hate birds because of the reminder it is of another day, ought, say, night I haven’t slept.
On same page as you in so many ways. Given how few posts I read in the vast amount you appear to have, i realy hope I’ve interpreted correctly (fibro brain!) and not made any gaffs!
Irene xx
Note: between fibro-brain, my sleep deprivation and my bossy iPad that insists that it knows what I want to say, dropping words, “inventing” words…I sound nuts. Sorry!