I don’t think I will ever get the hang of this whole “posting every day” business…but such is life.
I have eagerly welcomed the new arrival of fall. Being able to curl up with a blanket at bedtime, instead of the whole desperate attempt to attempt cool body temperatures, has definitely upped the levels of enjoyment of the days.
I finally have a job interview…despite acting like a moderate “space case” in an attempt to return the phone call. I forgot my phone number and stammered for a minute before hanging up the phone and kicking myself for being in 5th grade.
In the meantime, I have been spending my days playing video games on our new XBOX 360, attempting to find interesting pop culture materials to read/watch/hear, and being generally lazy…during the vast majority of my available productivity time. Oh well…I’ll get the hang of this life thing sooner or later. Most likely later.
I am le starving to death, watching Batman (the video game), and contemplating the variety of eats I could get my hands on. The two best things about fall: eating and curling up, and shopping for a new variety of ‘get warm’ things.
Next up on things to do tomorrow:
SELF ESTEEM AFFIRMATIONS!!
Gah, I need to not beat myself up over a whole lot of nothing. I’ll brainstorm this evening.
Incredibly rough night.
Detoxing is not something my body is a fan of. Trileptal and I are currently not friends (it can now join a multitude of other drugs and food). I doubt we ever much were, but sometimes I like to delude myself to the contrary.
I’ve managed to get my act together enough to do dishes, and now I can only hope I can get enough energy to bother writing.
Sometimes I wish I could be a research study case and people could just poke at me more than they already have. It just doesn’t seem fair to have a body that sucks all the fun out of the world.
But then again, who ever said life was fair.
I have food in the fridge and a roof over my head…must keep spirits up.
I will actually devise something to write in here that isn’t just updates on my less than exciting life tomorrow
So I just finished the book Julie and Julia.
Definitely an intriguing idea, and has most certainly put me on the mission to find a project for my unemployment days. I’ve been writing a lot lately, and I’m really enjoying it. I doubt I’ll ever get anything published, but I am known for being far too negative and hard on myself.
On the plus side, I’m cooking my first actual meal in like a month. Stuffed chicken breasts, mashed potatoes, and veggies – a gluten-free feast for someone who usually lives on trail mix bars. I mean why not? All the food I eat is either thrown up or causes severe intestinal disruptions. When you’ve seen all the delectable delights that you are so fond of in such a disgusting, half-digested form…it’s hard to really care about eating.
These “so-called” mood stabilizers aren’t doing it for me either. I feel like I’m being poisoned, and my head is just a-thumping.
My boyfriend has an ad coupon, so perhaps we’ll be able to draw some attention to my rather ‘currently’ lackluster site. More effort to be put in tomorrow!
It’s been forever since I posted.
Because for some reason I’m an all or nothing person, and can either seem to commit myself to something completely, or fall off the face of the Earth.
But I’ve started writing again. It feels pretty good. I should really do it more often.
I’m still rocking unemployment.
I saw a naturopath and managed to get no further other than a few hundred dollars poorer.
Numerous doctors appointments are arriving over the next few months.
I plan on completely revising the purpose of this blog.
And, on a final note: Nothing will ever beat the early morning combo of Tim Horton’s coffee and a cigarette.